EMO

昨天跟朋友出去逛逛。。遇到了中学同学。。被说胖了。。。胖了。。胖了。。。胖了。。 我伤心啊。。。。。。。。。

9 th Sept.

It has been a while since my last post,and even the last post didn't consist of more that 30 words,lol.

FIY,the past few month has been miserable for me,not everyday but overall really ''memekchekkan''. Most

of the pekchek things comes from my clinical practice,not that i hate going to work but it's the clinical

instructor who makes me feel don't want to go to the hospital. There were this few days where I really feel

like skipping it. There were also times when I nearly drop my tears because of them.It's frustrating. It's just

like primary school time when we were afraid of strict teacher and we don't wanna go to school,more or less

like that lo,hate it.

Felt relieved that clinical practice 3 has come to an end, its my revision week now and final exam is coming

after this week,haven't started any revision yet (as usual),hope i won't do last minute work again.

Revision week also means holidays la,was hoping to hang out with friends this week to relieved the clotted

stress.. but at the same time realized that it gets harder to gather now as everyone is busying with their own

things,I might as well fast fast find a thing to busy with,haiz ( >.> totally ignore the final exam)

世事难料之家乡篇。

昨晚接到了三伯打来的电话，说新巫遥没了。
大火把十七间老店全烧成平地，到接到电话当时，电话的另一头还响着很大声的烧火声。
当时我在想，天哪，好突然，怎么办，真的要烧完吗？那些回忆啊。
那是爸爸伯伯姑姑与堂姐妹的出生地，他们很难过吧，想了都心酸啊。大家整晚都没睡好。。
在那的三伯，三伯母，与年老的婆婆只能眼睁睁的看着大火把店屋吞噬，想了好难过。他们当时应该很希望救火车来救他们的家吧，可惜离这里最近的救火车是在Simunjan，当他们来了也太迟了。

这里原本是三伯的家，都成平地了。。这是一直以来大家新年的团圆地，新年的post我也说过很喜欢这里吧？
这也是是我堂姐妹的家，他们都在古晋工作，昨晚听了这消息个个都想赶回去，毕竟这是他们长大的地方。。他们今天一大早就赶回去了，可惜只能看见这样的一个情景。

所幸的是，这场火灾里没有伤亡，也是一个不幸里的大幸。。
虽然从小到大只有华人新年，清明节回去，可是回忆也不少，永远不会把它忘了。。

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i feel really confused now,the things i always thought it would never happen was actually now happening. something happened recently,which had made me realize more..everything i did actually reflects out how much i care. haih, i shouldn't think so much..it's just not meant to be. </3 just let the cycle repeats.

End of April 2012.

OSCE ended, hope I won't fail it :) One more week of posting and i'll back to college life (finally),studying is way more easy than working,its true!

(SHIFT+ALT)

这两天闷爆了，原以为周末可以好好玩两天，结果都呆在家发霉做宅女。聊天室也越来越少人上线了，就算上线也没有人知道要说什么，约出去玩，个个都好忙。。也对啦，有谁像我这样闲空。。好想去唱歌，想当年就算是三个人也能开开心心去找地方唱歌。。现在这个没有去那个也不要去，省钱的省钱，不喜欢的不喜欢。。很不喜欢这种感觉，我怕再这样下去我连约人都懒了（认真）。
真的好寂寞丫 。

请自行对号入座 :)

envy :') how many time has this word popped out,and when is my turn?

A lesson that will never be forgotten.

Today is STPM 2011 result releasing day,it really reminds me of mine last year. I still can feel the feeling for that day right now even after a year passed.The feeling when your friends happily cheering for passing the exam while i can only grieve for myself. Messages came, and i replied i failed. I didn't even answer calls,i guess i ll break into tears if i talk some more.

The funny thing is that,i still manage to go for  lunch with my friends,we even went karaoke,me and neo singing all the sad songs.I thinks its because both of us not daring to go home.But no matter how long we stayed there,we still need to go home,by the time i went home,its already night time. My parent sitting in the living room waiting for me,they didn't scold me. I burst into tears and really cried in front of them.I really feel embarrassed,what more to say regret.

hrm..what a flashback,i still can remember every single details of that day,after that day,i ve chose to go to a private college,i do apply for university,that is what I've always wanted,but again of course i failed to go into any of it.Until now,whenever people discussing their university things in front of me,i smiled and listened,but inside of me,who knows.
For now,i strive for the best result i can get in college,but me myself know clearly,no matter how many distinction I've gotten for my diplomas,it will never cover up what I've lost from the failure.The lesson that will never ever be forgotten in my life.

you reap what you sow wee2,you reap what you sow...true.

Happy Valentines day!

want write what gok,like that larh~ LOL

EMO