Today is STPM 2011 result releasing day,it really reminds me of mine last year. I still can feel the feeling for that day right now even after a year passed.The feeling when your friends happily cheering for passing the exam while i can only grieve for myself. Messages came, and i replied i failed. I didn't even answer calls,i guess i ll break into tears if i talk some more.
The funny thing is that,i still manage to go for lunch with my friends,we even went karaoke,me and neo singing all the sad songs.I thinks its because both of us not daring to go home.But no matter how long we stayed there,we still need to go home,by the time i went home,its already night time. My parent sitting in the living room waiting for me,they didn't scold me. I burst into tears and really cried in front of them.I really feel embarrassed,what more to say regret.
hrm..what a flashback,i still can remember every single details of that day,after that day,i ve chose to go to a private college,i do apply for university,that is what I've always wanted,but again of course i failed to go into any of it.Until now,whenever people discussing their university things in front of me,i smiled and listened,but inside of me,who knows.For now,i strive for the best result i can get in college,but me myself know clearly,no matter how many distinction I've gotten for my diplomas,it will never cover up what I've lost from the failure.The lesson that will never ever be forgotten in my life.
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| you reap what you sow wee2,you reap what you sow...true. |
