Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Friends,real or ?
Sometime the person that we thought as our good friend aren't one.
Seriously,just realized someone who I found not worth be friend ing.
All I want is just all of us being really good friends,not with backstabbing, gossiping, and those bad habits.
And yet you the one starting all of this, making us doubting each other, provoking argument..
I really hated this, and also hating you who started all of this.
You know who you are and I guess you won't have the chance to read this.
I want my friends back,I want the group to be good all over again,so stop doing what you're doing now. If you insist to do all this,fuck off.Go.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
If one day,nobody is gonna come here anymore..by Kw
If one day, nobody is gonna come here anymore, one day, i will read all the posts in this group, it reminds me
how we used to be so close back then, it reminds me this group were created on 23 october 2010, it tells
me how time flies and remind me all the happy times and all the fun in this group. it remind me so many
places such as permai, damai beach, matang family park, "cheh sua" temple, and so much others we went
visit and fooling around, laughing happily together. this group tells me how active we used to be both in real
life outings and on the internet in this group, it tells me everyone in this group had atlease post something
here, something funny, something sad, something about their thought, and it tells me the only one that never
post on this group up till now is the leader Oliver Chua Yaw Kwang. this group gave me a lot of
uncountable, unreplaceable, unforgetable memories. this memories remind me of this group of people that i
used to have alot of fun time, without these group of people, i cant imagine what kind of life im having in
those years, this memories will keep on living me my mind forever keeping me remember about this dapao
group..
if one day, nobody is gonna come here anymore...
Monday, June 25, 2012
世事难料之家乡篇。
昨晚接到了三伯打来的电话，说新巫遥没了。
大火把十七间老店全烧成平地，到接到电话当时，电话的另一头还响着很大声的烧火声。
当时我在想，天哪，好突然，怎么办，真的要烧完吗？那些回忆啊。
那是爸爸伯伯姑姑与堂姐妹的出生地，他们很难过吧，想了都心酸啊。大家整晚都没睡好。。
在那的三伯，三伯母，与年老的婆婆只能眼睁睁的看着大火把店屋吞噬，想了好难过。他们当时应该很希望救火车来救他们的家吧，可惜离这里最近的救火车是在Simunjan，当他们来了也太迟了。
所幸的是，这场火灾里没有伤亡，也是一个不幸里的大幸。。
虽然从小到大只有华人新年，清明节回去，可是回忆也不少，永远不会把它忘了。。
大火把十七间老店全烧成平地，到接到电话当时，电话的另一头还响着很大声的烧火声。
当时我在想，天哪，好突然，怎么办，真的要烧完吗？那些回忆啊。
那是爸爸伯伯姑姑与堂姐妹的出生地，他们很难过吧，想了都心酸啊。大家整晚都没睡好。。
在那的三伯，三伯母，与年老的婆婆只能眼睁睁的看着大火把店屋吞噬，想了好难过。他们当时应该很希望救火车来救他们的家吧，可惜离这里最近的救火车是在Simunjan，当他们来了也太迟了。
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| 这里原本是三伯的家，都成平地了。。这是一直以来大家新年的团圆地，新年的post我也说过很喜欢这里吧？ 这也是是我堂姐妹的家，他们都在古晋工作，昨晚听了这消息个个都想赶回去，毕竟这是他们长大的地方。。他们今天一大早就赶回去了，可惜只能看见这样的一个情景。 |
虽然从小到大只有华人新年，清明节回去，可是回忆也不少，永远不会把它忘了。。
Friday, June 22, 2012
...
i feel really confused now,the things i always thought it would never happen was actually now happening. something happened recently,which had made me realize more..everything i did actually reflects out how much i care. haih, i shouldn't think so much..it's just not meant to be. </3 just let the cycle repeats.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
五月
这几天不知道干嘛，感觉自己好像懒惰了，已经开始新的学期咯。。感觉很混乱，脑袋空空的 >< 太久没用头脑了吗？不对呀。。就怪怪的，一直也感到不安。。刚刚跟朋友乱聊了一下，感觉好很多。。谢谢呀 :)
Sunday, April 29, 2012
End of April 2012.
OSCE ended, hope I won't fail it :) One more week of posting and i'll back to college life (finally),studying is way more easy than working,its true!
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这两天闷爆了，原以为周末可以好好玩两天，结果都呆在家发霉做宅女。聊天室也越来越少人上线了，就算上线也没有人知道要说什么，约出去玩，个个都好忙。。也对啦，有谁像我这样闲空。。好想去唱歌，想当年就算是三个人也能开开心心去找地方唱歌。。现在这个没有去那个也不要去，省钱的省钱，不喜欢的不喜欢。。很不喜欢这种感觉，我怕再这样下去我连约人都懒了（认真）。
真的好寂寞丫 。
请自行对号入座 :)
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这两天闷爆了，原以为周末可以好好玩两天，结果都呆在家发霉做宅女。聊天室也越来越少人上线了，就算上线也没有人知道要说什么，约出去玩，个个都好忙。。也对啦，有谁像我这样闲空。。好想去唱歌，想当年就算是三个人也能开开心心去找地方唱歌。。现在这个没有去那个也不要去，省钱的省钱，不喜欢的不喜欢。。很不喜欢这种感觉，我怕再这样下去我连约人都懒了（认真）。
真的好寂寞丫 。
请自行对号入座 :)
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Just another lame week.
The week has been terribly KNS.
Firstly,I've been suggested for the election of FNAH representative to join the main campus's student council,therefore i had to compete with 8 other student from the faculty for the 2 space. Went for photo taking session for the poster,the DMLT student wore really smartly for it,me?super casual,aiks.The photo is really ugly,don't really dare to see it when it is out. sigh.
Next its about my scholarship(the budget for my laptop),KNS.I haven't received any cent of it until now,went to the counter to ask for it,but they didn't really explain to me yet making me more blur. I went to talk to the cousellor and she helped me to ask the people in-charged.Finally i get to refund the money but the amount SHRANK.About RM800 lost and nobody can explain to me what happened! They said its the main campus's head accountant who counted it,and she didn't explain to me how the amount was counted...feel cheated larh. KNS. I personally think that the cheque will take years to come too. what a college.
Now back to my practical days again,case study finally finished and thanks to Alek who helped me to print it out at last minute,Jinki ran out of toner when all people needs to print their case study.Panicked for the whole night,banyak kamsia to alek and gl who offered to help ^^
The worst news for the week,NO HOLIDAY FOR APRIL...i was actually looking forward for the practical to end next week. Suddenly the college tell us that we will continue our posting until the new semester starts.NOT EVEN A SEMESTER BREAK.WTF? feel disappointed to hear that,some of my friend cried because they were planning to go back to their hometown during the holidays..again,what a college. KNS.
all my holiday plan..cancelled!! :( u say kns or not...
Firstly,I've been suggested for the election of FNAH representative to join the main campus's student council,therefore i had to compete with 8 other student from the faculty for the 2 space. Went for photo taking session for the poster,the DMLT student wore really smartly for it,me?super casual,aiks.The photo is really ugly,don't really dare to see it when it is out. sigh.
Next its about my scholarship(the budget for my laptop),KNS.I haven't received any cent of it until now,went to the counter to ask for it,but they didn't really explain to me yet making me more blur. I went to talk to the cousellor and she helped me to ask the people in-charged.Finally i get to refund the money but the amount SHRANK.About RM800 lost and nobody can explain to me what happened! They said its the main campus's head accountant who counted it,and she didn't explain to me how the amount was counted...feel cheated larh. KNS. I personally think that the cheque will take years to come too. what a college.
Now back to my practical days again,case study finally finished and thanks to Alek who helped me to print it out at last minute,Jinki ran out of toner when all people needs to print their case study.Panicked for the whole night,banyak kamsia to alek and gl who offered to help ^^
The worst news for the week,NO HOLIDAY FOR APRIL...i was actually looking forward for the practical to end next week. Suddenly the college tell us that we will continue our posting until the new semester starts.NOT EVEN A SEMESTER BREAK.WTF? feel disappointed to hear that,some of my friend cried because they were planning to go back to their hometown during the holidays..again,what a college. KNS.
all my holiday plan..cancelled!! :( u say kns or not...
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Wednesday, March 7, 2012
A lesson that will never be forgotten.
Today is STPM 2011 result releasing day,it really reminds me of mine last year. I still can feel the feeling for that day right now even after a year passed.The feeling when your friends happily cheering for passing the exam while i can only grieve for myself. Messages came, and i replied i failed. I didn't even answer calls,i guess i ll break into tears if i talk some more.
The funny thing is that,i still manage to go for lunch with my friends,we even went karaoke,me and neo singing all the sad songs.I thinks its because both of us not daring to go home.But no matter how long we stayed there,we still need to go home,by the time i went home,its already night time. My parent sitting in the living room waiting for me,they didn't scold me. I burst into tears and really cried in front of them.I really feel embarrassed,what more to say regret.
hrm..what a flashback,i still can remember every single details of that day,after that day,i ve chose to go to a private college,i do apply for university,that is what I've always wanted,but again of course i failed to go into any of it.Until now,whenever people discussing their university things in front of me,i smiled and listened,but inside of me,who knows.For now,i strive for the best result i can get in college,but me myself know clearly,no matter how many distinction I've gotten for my diplomas,it will never cover up what I've lost from the failure.The lesson that will never ever be forgotten in my life.
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| you reap what you sow wee2,you reap what you sow...true. |
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Monday, February 20, 2012
story of thermometer.
Few days ago, i broke my CI's thermometer. she was like
'why you so careless!!i've use this thermometer for 10year plus you know??'
okay that makes me feel really sorry,and since the rule says we have to replace back with a new one,i replaced two instead in the next day.
on the next day(18/2),i brought the thermometers and replaced it,everything went smooth until today,she suddenly came and find for me asking if i had replaced the thermometer, i said yes and my senior took my 'replaced thermometer' out to show her too,then she went
'why you no tell me you replaced it?you know your attitude like this is not responsible you know?you must tell me....blah blah'
wow,a lecture for not telling her i replaced the thermometer?yet we already used it for 1 day??if i didn't replace that where do these thermometers come from??what the..
i can only say sorry there,nothing else i can do,no point to argue back,but i really feel..
what for you scold me in front of other people only for this small matter?really unreasonable,feel really upset,don't why suddenly got scolded.Ruined my mood for the whole shift!
After that i think she got carried away by her feelings,she gave me low marks for my report! Didn't even comment on my report!argh! at least tell me whats my mistakes lah!!kns people
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
The first sigh in 2012.
Hey... happy 2012 ya , a bit lazy to talk about new year resolutions today, another day perhaps XD come we talk about my FOC WORK. I've started my posting again today, its a total MESS !
So I'm now having my practical in the geriatric ward,basically dealing with old folks and their diseases. It is way too hard compared to the last ward I've been to last month which is the RTU ward. Maybe it was just my own feeling because i have not adapted to the ward situation yet, but the ward I'm practical-ing now is not as peace as the RTU ward, furthermore today I'm in a blur + holiday blue*state, did a big mistakes which scared me to death too,they said i looked panicked, DUH I REALLY AM.
Besides that , i managed to pull out an intravenous cannula too (wow for a rookie student nurse), oh yeah and i climbed to the 9th floor without the use of lift too (wow for a fatty). ** when i arrived the 9th floor my leg were like jelly~ i feel shaky,ha-ha!* yes I'll do it again tomorrow but not the mistakes!! Must improve it tomorrow! not gonna let people look down at me!!hrpmh!
So I'm now having my practical in the geriatric ward,basically dealing with old folks and their diseases. It is way too hard compared to the last ward I've been to last month which is the RTU ward. Maybe it was just my own feeling because i have not adapted to the ward situation yet, but the ward I'm practical-ing now is not as peace as the RTU ward, furthermore today I'm in a blur + holiday blue*state, did a big mistakes which scared me to death too,they said i looked panicked, DUH I REALLY AM.
Besides that , i managed to pull out an intravenous cannula too (wow for a rookie student nurse), oh yeah and i climbed to the 9th floor without the use of lift too (wow for a fatty). ** when i arrived the 9th floor my leg were like jelly~ i feel shaky,ha-ha!* yes I'll do it again tomorrow but not the mistakes!! Must improve it tomorrow! not gonna let people look down at me!!hrpmh!
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| a pic we took during 2012 eve,countdown-ing at Friendship garden! May Dapao friendship never sinks! |
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Hi, Mommy.
I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few
weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I
will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me
your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It
doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I
do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want
us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do
that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
If you’re against abortion, reblog.
I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few
weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I
will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me
your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It
doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I
do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want
us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do
that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
If you’re against abortion, reblog.
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| feel like crying :'( |
Friday, July 8, 2011
sorry..
added the sspca page just now and search for my puppies..saw their photo,from the comment one of them was dead...i cried out..really really sad...shouldn't agree to my parents to put them there..i should keep them with me..i thought it will be ok for me if i didn't think about it anymore..but just after i see the photo i missed them..and when i read the comment that one of the had died i cried..seriously cried...until now..wee2 is a badass..dada xiao xiao... :'( sorry....
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